Stepping Out of the Boat

The heaviness of guilt, shame, anger, sadness can yield a sick heart and weary spirit. I could find myself at random moments feeling pains in my belly area. It is hard to really describe it, but I would compare it to an inward sore. One day I was driving to work with not much on my mind. I turned on the radio, and Tamela Mann was singing ""Take Me to the King."" I began to sing along, ""Take me to the King, I don't have much to bring... take me to the throne, leave me there alone."" The gentle touch of teardrops began to flow down my cheek and slowly dripped from the edge of my chin. ""How did I get to this place?"" I wondered. It takes a brave woman to acknowledge where she is emotionally and not beat herself up about it. I had to recognize that my heart was still broken, yet I was rushing to get better due to false expectations. People often walk around wearing unlocked handcuffs and enduring pain, when God wants them to live a boundary-free life. In Stepping Out of the Boat, author Kim Smith shares how her loss was a major blow that forced an exchange--accept healing and trust again, or reject it and remain subdued. You can't get rid of your process, so are you willing to deal with you?